Wednesday, March 4, 2015

Week 7, I think.

I haven't blogged and I haven't really exercised. Only once this week. I know, I know. I haven't given up and tossed this aside. I've been having problems with my left shoulder/arm. I went to the doctor last week and the doctor thought that I had a pinched nerve or a pulled muscle and recommended physical therapy. I went to my first PT appointment last Thursday. After going through the evaluation which brought me to tears, it has been decided that I am having some rotator cuff issues along with a frozen shoulder. My PT appointments are on Tuesday's and Thursday's, right after work. I'll be going for at least a month of two. If no improvement after a month, I get sent for an MRI.

I'm not wimpy, I can handle a high tolerance to certain pains, other pain not so much. Again I was brought to tears during my exercises yesterday, as well as when the PT stretched me out afterwards. I kept telling myself that I know I'm going to have to go through a great deal of pain before this feels better and I am 100%. Not a very comfortable night sleeping and was in a lot of discomfort this morning and during the day. In less than 24 hours I'll be going through this again. The ice pack and the recliner have become my best friends. I'm not whining, well maybe a little, but I keep thinking back to the surgery and months of PT my husband had, I can do this.

So hang in there, I'll be back around. The 3 of us will be back around. Dan suggested the walking video, but not doing the arm movements. Yes, that is what we will do.

I have not and nor will I give up. Honestly exercise makes me feel better! Not exercising makes me feel crappy.

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Monday, February 23, 2015

Getting My Kicks with the Start of Week Six!

Today was just one of those days. Apparently when I got dressed for work, I put on my cranky pants. No real reason for being cranky, well not that I knew of. I just feel off today. School was delayed, so I got to sleep in 40 minutes longer, but I really didn't sleep well. Went to bed later, my left arm/shoulder hurts really bad and that wakes me up and I had a cup of coffee around 7:30 last night. Usually I can drink a whole pot and it doesn't bother me, last did.

So today is the beginning of Week 6. I have 5 weeks of exercise behind me. I'm a little frustrated, I have yet to see a result of exercising 5 days a week. I know, I know, every little bit helps. When someone as large as me is trying to become a smaller version, results aren't quick to see. This weekend was a crap food weekend. I did not over indulge, I just didn't eat real great. Today I made sure I was more aware of what I was shoveling in. I have tonight's dinner left overs for tomorrow's lunch. My big meal will be at noon. Hubby will have left overs for tomorrow's dinner and Danny and I will have a sandwich. I've found that I really like eating a bigger meal at noon, then something light at dinner time. Now that Dan is home every night for dinner, I feel that I must make a real meal... In honesty, he could care less. I could make him toast and pour him a bowl of cereal and he'd be happy.  So now that I have this exercise thing down, I have to work on my food, what I eat and the portions. I also have to increase my water. Rome wasn't built in a day and it took 46 years for me to reach this horrible, disgusting size, everything will mesh and it will slowly come off.

While dinner was in the oven, I walked away those pounds with Leslie. I was a loner today. My guys didn't join in. Dan's knee was bothering him, he sat on the couch with the heating pad, Danny sat on the other couch dozing on and off. At first I felt a little slighted, then irritated, then I just decided eff it, I'm exercising. I put myself into my own little bubble and pretended they weren't even in the room with me. I zoned. When I was finished, both of them told me what a great job I did and they both promised to join me tomorrow without my asking. I love that we as a family do this, but I am doing this for me. I can not depend on someone to do it with me. I am responsible for me. I could have very easily said screw it today because no one else was going to exercise, but I didn't. I can not do that.

Tomorrow is going to be a crazy Tuesday. The delay call from the school came. I know I can sleep in until 6:00. I have a doctor's appt. after work. I'm finally going to have my left arm and shoulder checked out. This has been going on far too long. For the past 2 weeks it keeps getting harder and harder to sleep. I've noticed a decrease in my strength and over the weekend pain was traveling down into my wrist and fingers. It sucks getting old, I feel like I'm falling apart.

I took a picture after walking this afternoon, not the best quality, I used Danny's iPod. I had that nice shimmery glean.... my fat was crying, red face and messy hair.  And I felt great afterwards. This is the real me.

For those of you who are still following my journey, thank you. Please become a follower. Share my blog with your friends. It would be so incredibly wonderful to have a little support network out there. We can all help one another to become healthier versions of ourselves!

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Friday, February 20, 2015

A Family That Exercises Together...

Wow! I can not believe today is Day 5 of Week 5. We as a family exercised together for 5 days this week! I am proud of my family. It's a tiny step, but we as a family took that step. A step in the right direction. 
It was 5:30 and I mentioned exercise... hmmm what to do. The idea of Richard Simmons was a tossed out suggestion, but to my surprise, Danny suggested a walking video. This was the first time he has ever suggested any form of exercise. There was no way I was going to say no. Danny and I started the Leslie Sansone Walk Away the Pounds. Dan did his shoulder exercises, then joined us in walking at the 1/2 mile mark. Although it was only a 1 mile walk, it was 1 mile we wouldn't have walked if we didn't do it.
Maybe this spring I'll be able to keep up with Miss Lisbeth walking around town. I won't have the OMG you're killing me feeling, I can't keep up. However, when the time comes and Miss Lisbeth is on Full Speed Ahead, if needed, I will speak up and ask her to shift it down a notch :)

I know males have the tendency to lose weight quicker, their bodies shape up faster... I can not let this discourage me.
I am just so over the top happy that we as a family did some form of exercise for 5 days. I can not wait for Week 6 to begin on Monday. WE have set our sails in the right direction and are becoming a healthier version of us! YAY!!!

We are expecting a snow storm tomorrow. Although I like taking the weekends off from exercise, I know the 3 of us will be outside shoveling snow in the driveway.

Have a great weekend! Keep warm and safe wherever you may be!

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Tuesday, February 17, 2015

Tuesday, Not a good day. Week 5

Today is Tuesday. It hasn't been a good day. My day began at 3:00 a.m. when I woke up in pain. My left hip. I have no idea what happened or what I did, but it hurt and it hurt bad. I took 3 ibuprofen and went back to bed. There was no comfortable position. Out to the living room I went. Reclining in the chair didn't make the pain any better. I went back to into my bed. At least it was warm under the comforter. 2 more ibuprofen at 6:45 and the heating pad. At 7:10, Danny and I were off...
Got to work at 8:00, boss man wasn't in yet, he arrived by 8:15, was cranky, stayed 20 minutes and went home. Best thing ever. I found a comfortable position, laying 1/2 way over my desk. Unfortunately I could not spend my day that way. Whenever I got a chance, I laid across my desk. It seemed to relieve some of the pain, maybe stretching it out, I don't know. I pushed myself to walk out in the warehouse a little more than usual, I figured if I didn't move, it would get worse. When I got home I hit the recliner with the heating pad and fell asleep for an hour.
After dinner and clean up, it was a little after 7:00, I had to exercise. I didn't want to exercise because of my hip, but I forced myself to and I did it. The 3 of us exercised. Danny not completely, but I wasn't in the mood to push tonight. Dan started out by doing his shoulder exercises. About 1/2 way into the video, I turned to my right and Dan was doing the video with me. A little wave of emotion came over me.
Last night while I was getting my shower, Dan came in for our usual chat. We do that. Basically it is the only place where we can have a discussion without Danny being there. He told me that he is glad to be home with us, but even more than that, he is so happy that I started exercising. He was encouraging, "You're going to notice a difference, not in 2 weeks, maybe not in 8, but if you keep doing this like you are, you will see your results."

Dan is amazed at what kind of exercise videos are found on the Internet. He thought that I did videos on the TV and played the Wii. I have no set program, whatever I feel like doing that day, I do. I don't want to get bored, I don't want to get into the same routine. I don't want to get to the point that I don't want to do this anymore.

At first I wasn't fond of the idea of sharing my exercise, but after tonight, I think I'm going to like it. Dan's range of motion isn't 100% from his surgery and mine isn't either because of my size. But watching him do it to the best of his ability was the exact little push I needed to complete my program to the best of my ability.

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Monday, February 16, 2015

Stayin' Alive with Week Number 5

 Wow!!! Today is the beginning of Week 5 for me. In all honesty, I did not exercise as much as I should have last week and I noticed a difference, but I didn't quit!!! I got back on it today.
Exercising now has come to a whole new level. My husband is working a different shift now. He will be home with us every evening. We get to have dinner together every day. I missed the family dinners with the 3 of us when he was on afternoon shift. This shift will take some getting used to, but I/we absolutely love that he is home with us.
Last Friday, Dan and I were talking and he was asking about exercising and asked if Danny and I did it on Thursday, I didn't lie, I told him that we didn't. He told me that now that he is going to be home he is going to push me into doing it. Push me? Those 2 words felt like hot embers. No one is going to push me. Like I said from the very beginning, this is all on me. I'm not making promises. I have always been the type of person that if I feel I'm being forced into doing something, I just won't do it. I stop... completely. So I looked at him and said, "I don't need pushed." Then he corrected himself, he asked if he could exercise with me. I said sure.
I gave Dan a little fair warning beforehand, he asked if we were going to dance. I didn't feel like dancing today... wasn't sure if I felt like walking, but I discovered these Launchpad Exercise Videos on youtube and love them. The one I did today was Stage 2, Episode 1. Dan didn't do the video with me, but he did his shoulder exercises that he was slacked on since PT finished up a couple of weeks ago. I have to admit that I was a little nervous having him in the living room with me while I was exercising, why??? He's my husband... we've been together forever. Anyway, I did my exercise video, he did his exercises, he finished before me and did join in at the end. Danny came upstairs and did a few leg lifts. A few minutes into my video, I didn't even know Dan was there. I focused and focuses on myself. He had encouraging words a long the way, that was a nice little boost. Danny also encouraged.
After exercise I finished getting dinner ready. I used the crock pot today. Venison roast with carrots and I made homemade mashed potatoes. We all sat down for a family dinner and it was yummy. It felt nice, it felt good. Kitchen is all cleaned up and as soon as I am done with my blog, we will have a few more hours together, as a family.

I love the above picture of Tess. She is my plus size super hero. She is absolutely gorgeous! I wish I had 1/10th of the confidence she has. Beauty isn't a size and I wish people would understand that. Sadly they do not. Weight is only a number, I do not want to be a number, I haven't gotten on the scale. I will when I have a doctors appointment at the end of March. I have a vision, a vision of a size I want to be.

As I am finishing my blog, thinking about my Monday, I've had a great Monday. It was bitter, nasty cold. Boss man was cranky as hell, but I'm here, I'm happy. I exercised, my spirits lifted, my guys are home and I'm content.

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Tuesday, February 10, 2015

Berries, Berries and More Berries

My second day into Week 4. I'm still amazed at myself.
Not a lot to blog about today. It was a crazy day. Left the house at 7:10 a.m. and didn't get home until 5:15 p.m. I stopped at Aldi on my way home, that was my first stop... They had fresh berries on sale. I've been craving fresh fruit, summer fruit... I got my berry fix today for sure. Strawberries, raspberries, blackberries, blueberries and Dried Cranberries for my salad. I also bought fresh veggies to make a nice salad. I would have been fine with salad and fresh fruit, but I still would have had to make something for Danny for dinner. I also bought a take-n-bake pizza.

While the pizza was baking, I was preparing my salads, I also made my lunch for tomorrow, which is the same thing I had for dinner tonight.
Healthy food is pretty food. All of the pretty colors, the more color, the better for you it is. I believe it also satisfies your pallet too. I ate my salad first, for my dressing I used a Cranberry Pear Balsamic Vinegar mixed with a Basil infused evoo. OH MY! Delish! A much better, heart healthy dressing and so tasty! Normally I would have went for a 3rd piece of pizza, but I had a hard time trying to finish my 2nd piece. I'm proud of myself for eating healthy (except for pizza) tonight and eating until I was satisfied, not stuffed.

It's too late to exercise tonight, I'll never be able to fall asleep. I feel bad about not doing anything, but I did get a few good walks in today. Parking further away from the stores I went to today and walking the whole way around the inside of the stores. Also at work, I did quite a few upper body exercises while at my desk and when my boss wasn't there. Although I would like to do more, I just can't. I need my sleep.

I won't be able to blog tomorrow, my 4 favorite littles are coming over for a visit. We're going to have a blast. 

Enjoy your night!

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Monday, February 9, 2015

I Exercised Today, Did You? Week 4

Week 4!!! Wowzers! I'm just starting into my 4th week. I'm not one to pat myself on the back, but I am patting myself on the back!
Last week was hard. Too many bad work days, too many body aches. I slacked and will be the first to admit it. I know I exercised on Thursday, but I honestly do not remember what I did.
Friday was the Garth Brooks concert. I didn't exercise, I indulged! A little too much. Didn't eat the right food and drank a little too much.... O.k., I drank A LOT!!! I paid for it dearly on Saturday as I was worse than a slug's slug. No excuses, but it sure was a fun girl's night out. Something that we all needed.

Today at work, my work buddy looked at me and said, "Sharon, you look like you've lost 5 or 10 pounds." I looked at him and told him he was full of shit and walked back into my office. I kept thinking about that all day... I really don't feel like, I don't think I look like I have. There is no way possible. I'm not doing enough to lose that much. Finally at the end of the day I had to ask him if he was serious or just joking. He is quite the kidder. I made it perfectly clear that if he was messing with me that I was o.k. with it. He said, "No, I wasn't joking. You look like you have lost weight. Sharon when people our size (he is chubby too) lose weight and it is noticed, it is a nice thing to hear. We need to hear it." I thanked him.

Well that was the morale boost I needed. I got home from work, didn't take my 30/45 minute nap, got dinner in the oven and went into my Pinterest Boards. I did a 27 minute chair work out. It was fun, didn't seem like it took 27 minutes, I could feel it, but I enjoyed it. That's right, I just said I enjoyed exercising. Tomorrow is one of my crazy days. I'll fit something in, somehow. I'm looking forward to it.

And just a little dinner note, I roasted a 1/2 of a turkey breast, but first I melted a little "I Can't Believe It's Not Butter Light" and added Frank's Wing Sauce to it. Danny got out his injector and injected the turkey breast. OMG!!! Delicious! You must try it!

One positive thing that I have noticed, my feet haven't looked like sausages for about 2 weeks now. I ordered a pair of boots on line before Christmas. The right one fit, the left was tight and I couldn't get the zipper zipped the whole way. The boots are low, ankle length/height. Well I tried them over the weekend. The right one fit, I knew it would. I put the left one on, it's a little tight because my left foot is a little wider than my right, BUT.....   the zipper zipped the whole way up and it was not tight on my ankle!!!! I'll be wearing my new boots this week!

As for the blog, I don't think I'm going to write it every day, maybe 2 or 3 times a week. Just want to put that out there, don't want you to think I have given up. Sometimes it is hard to write every night. If you are still hanging in here with me and following along on my journey, I thank you from the bottom of my heart!

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