Friday, June 23, 2017

Friday Afternoon Rain - PF Day 3

So it's Friday and it rained all day.
I woke up with a headache... while brushing my teeth I said to myself, "I don't want to go to Planet Fitness today."
I had a doctor's appointment at 1:15 for my shoulder, I had surgery in January. I had to leave the house today...
Danny and I left at 12:30 dressed in our Planet Fitness clothes.
Doctor's appointment went well. I'm officially released!!! Dr. E gave me a few tips on what to do and what not to do right now. He told me to make sure I tell the trainer when I meet with him/her on Wednesday about my surgery and they will take that into account when coming up with my fitness plan.
When pulling into the Planet Fitness parking lot, I mentioned to Danny that I really hope we do not see my bosses car. Danny told me that if we do, we can turn around and go home. I sighed and said, "No we can't." We got out of the car, pouring down rain and entered PF. As soon as we were inside, we were greeted by smiles and happy hello's. Today I decided I was going to try out the Hydro Massage Chair/Bed. I scheduled my chair time for an hour and 15 minutes after we got there.
Today we hit the bikes first... I adjusted the seat and started to pedal away. It didn't last long, only a 1/2 mile, but it was a 1/2 mile more than the day before. I will work more at the tread mill and bike. I will also try the Elliptical, but for right now I am completely happy working out on the machines, my upper and lower body. Anything is better than nothing. I enjoy it. I sweat. And guess what? I don't mind sweating in there! It's like its cool to sweat in Planet Fitness. Not cool to sweat at home.
The time went fast today. Danny brought up the fact that each time we've been there time has gone fast. At 3:15 I went over to the desk for my Hydro Chair Appointment.
OH EM GEE!!!!!!!!!!!
I thought I died and went to heaven. It's a little warm where the chairs are. It's dim and it sounds like Ocean Waves. As soon as I was nice and comfy in the chair, I pressed the start button. 10 minutes of heaven! I didn't want it to end. And after those 10 minutes ended, way too soon, I made up my mind that my reward at Planet Fitness is the Hydro Chair after I work out. I will schedule my appointment anywhere between an hour and 15 minutes to 1-1/2 hours after being there. 
This isn't new news, but I really enjoy hanging out with my kid. He gets me. I get him. He talks to me, I talk to him. He opened up to me today. Told me how he wants to change, he doesn't want to be this way anymore. We talked about goals, small goals and long term goals. My long term goal, one year from now is to have 2 Kayaks. Danny loves to Kayak and I've always wanted to, but never have because of my size. My short term goals, to be able to cross my legs AND bend over to tie my shoes. Danny's short term goal is to see his belt buckle and find jeans that fit him a lot better. In the car afterwards, I told him that I really didn't want to go today, Danny said he had felt the same, but is so happy we did. We talked about how fast the time goes and how much better we both feel when we are done. We fist bumped and said we got this! 
It's going to be a long journey... there are going to be many bumps a long the way, but that's okay. We'll get there. I know it's only been our 3rd visit, but something tells me this time is different. We're doing it and we're doing it together. Just me and my boy... One Planet Fitness visit at a time.

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Wednesday, June 21, 2017

Sweating with my Kid at Planet Fitness - Day 2

Hi!
I did it! We did it! Planet Fitness Day 2! Today we worked out for an hour and 15 minutes! That's 15 minutes more than Monday! 
YAY US!!!
I have to say that I am very proud of my boy, he worked out on some of the machines, then he rode the bike for 5 miles!!!, then went back to the machines! I'm so happy Danny is into it. It makes me feel good and I love having him there with me.
I just kind of wandered around trying this and that. And during the process, I worked up a sweat. I worked on a few machines, then I tried the recumbent bike... ummmm... well that didn't work so. I couldn't get comfortable and my lower left leg hurt when I tried to pedal. So, that's on the back burner for a while. I will conquer the bike! I WILL! I also ventured onto a tread mill. And well... I had visions in my head of how that was going to be, me failing miserably, falling face first and getting flung off the back. Well that's not exactly what happened, I didn't fly off the back. I'm not afraid to admit this (now), I was only able to walk a 1/2 mile on it. Disappointment was there, I held back my tears. I didn't tell my mom it was only a 1/2 mile and I didn't tell Danny... At that moment, I realized that if the Zombie Apocalypse happened I would be dead, instantly. I would tell my group just to go on and I would lie down in the middle of the road and well... you know the rest.
I went back over to the other side and worked on the machines more. My most favorite one at this moment is the leg press. I could do that for hours.
I managed to take a pic of me and Danny sweating together:
Little by little, we're going to move mountains together.
On the way to the car I did tell Danny my treadmill failure victory. He looked at me and said, "Mom, it's a 1/2 mile more than you did yesterday." Mom pauses for a brief moment, wonders how her 16 son has become so wise, realizes again what an amazing young man she has and says, "Thank you." with a smile.
We got in the car happy. In good moods! Happy with an hour and 15 minutes. We did it! And we're going to keep doing it. It's really hard to explain, but this exercise thing makes you feel kind of good. It kind of lifts your spirits. It kind of makes you want to go back and do it again.
We're looking forward to Friday afternoon! In fact, we can't wait!

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And as the clock is about to hit 9:00, Day 2 of Planet Fitness is in the books!

Monday, June 19, 2017

Planet Fitness - Day 1

Hi! It's been away since I've blogged on here... like 2 years ago and boy have I let myself go since then! 
I'm fat, unhappy, unhealthy and there is someone screaming inside of me that wants out.
I joined Planet Fitness! I've never stepped foot in a gym before!
I was scared, I was nervous. My son went with me as my Guest. 
We had fun! We can't wait to go again.
We tried out several machines. It was very crowded when we arrived. We wanted to work out together and it was hard finding 2 of the same machines side by side open. We did leg presses, worked our upper bodies and ending our one hour first visit with riding the bikes.
Was it easy? No. Was it hard? A little. Was it worth it? YES!
It didn't take me overnight to get this way and I'm not going to be able to fix myself overnight. Baby steps. Even if it is one step today, well that's one step more than I took yesterday.
I can't believe I'm posting this picture of myself. The first one I took didn't turn out, it was blurry so I had my son take this one after we got home. This is me. Non filtered, not hiding behind someone or doing the neck stretches to hide the double chin. The real me. Every month around this time I will post a new photo.

On my way across the parking lot, those feelings came back. The feelings of being picked last in gym class. Hearing the the harsh words of being called fat, beached whale, cow or being mooed at. The very first person that ever called me fat was Sharon Peters. I was in 1st grade, she was in 4th or 5th. My brother didn't ride the school bus with me anymore and she was ruthless. Every day from the time she got on the bus until the time she got off the bus... It just didn't happen with her. There were others too. My neighbor walked by on the road a few years ago while I was working in my flower bed and mooed. My boss made comments. I know those are only words and they do not make up who I am, but once you hear them over and over again you really start to believe them.
I opened the door to Planet Fitness and walked inside. The girl remembered me from last week, I was greeted with a huge smile and a big hello. I started to feel a little better. Danny and I made our  way around the place figuring out where to start. There were people there of all shapes and sizes. No one was LOOKING or STARING at me. No one was smirking. People smiled, some said hello. But not one negative word.

I've talked about joining and one single sentence from my husband last week made up my mind.
"I want to be able to take walks with you before I get too old."

This is me all sweaty and an hour later. I had fun and I can't wait to go back!
I'm looking forward to it!
I can't believe I actually wrote that!

Wednesday, March 4, 2015

Week 7, I think.

I haven't blogged and I haven't really exercised. Only once this week. I know, I know. I haven't given up and tossed this aside. I've been having problems with my left shoulder/arm. I went to the doctor last week and the doctor thought that I had a pinched nerve or a pulled muscle and recommended physical therapy. I went to my first PT appointment last Thursday. After going through the evaluation which brought me to tears, it has been decided that I am having some rotator cuff issues along with a frozen shoulder. My PT appointments are on Tuesday's and Thursday's, right after work. I'll be going for at least a month of two. If no improvement after a month, I get sent for an MRI.

I'm not wimpy, I can handle a high tolerance to certain pains, other pain not so much. Again I was brought to tears during my exercises yesterday, as well as when the PT stretched me out afterwards. I kept telling myself that I know I'm going to have to go through a great deal of pain before this feels better and I am 100%. Not a very comfortable night sleeping and was in a lot of discomfort this morning and during the day. In less than 24 hours I'll be going through this again. The ice pack and the recliner have become my best friends. I'm not whining, well maybe a little, but I keep thinking back to the surgery and months of PT my husband had, I can do this.

So hang in there, I'll be back around. The 3 of us will be back around. Dan suggested the walking video, but not doing the arm movements. Yes, that is what we will do.

I have not and nor will I give up. Honestly exercise makes me feel better! Not exercising makes me feel crappy.

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Monday, February 23, 2015

Getting My Kicks with the Start of Week Six!


Today was just one of those days. Apparently when I got dressed for work, I put on my cranky pants. No real reason for being cranky, well not that I knew of. I just feel off today. School was delayed, so I got to sleep in 40 minutes longer, but I really didn't sleep well. Went to bed later, my left arm/shoulder hurts really bad and that wakes me up and I had a cup of coffee around 7:30 last night. Usually I can drink a whole pot and it doesn't bother me, last night...it did.

So today is the beginning of Week 6. I have 5 weeks of exercise behind me. I'm a little frustrated, I have yet to see a result of exercising 5 days a week. I know, I know, every little bit helps. When someone as large as me is trying to become a smaller version, results aren't quick to see. This weekend was a crap food weekend. I did not over indulge, I just didn't eat real great. Today I made sure I was more aware of what I was shoveling in. I have tonight's dinner left overs for tomorrow's lunch. My big meal will be at noon. Hubby will have left overs for tomorrow's dinner and Danny and I will have a sandwich. I've found that I really like eating a bigger meal at noon, then something light at dinner time. Now that Dan is home every night for dinner, I feel that I must make a real meal... In honesty, he could care less. I could make him toast and pour him a bowl of cereal and he'd be happy.  So now that I have this exercise thing down, I have to work on my food, what I eat and the portions. I also have to increase my water. Rome wasn't built in a day and it took 46 years for me to reach this horrible, disgusting size, everything will mesh and it will slowly come off.

While dinner was in the oven, I walked away those pounds with Leslie. I was a loner today. My guys didn't join in. Dan's knee was bothering him, he sat on the couch with the heating pad, Danny sat on the other couch dozing on and off. At first I felt a little slighted, then irritated, then I just decided eff it, I'm exercising. I put myself into my own little bubble and pretended they weren't even in the room with me. I zoned. When I was finished, both of them told me what a great job I did and they both promised to join me tomorrow without my asking. I love that we as a family do this, but I am doing this for me. I can not depend on someone to do it with me. I am responsible for me. I could have very easily said screw it today because no one else was going to exercise, but I didn't. I can not do that.

Tomorrow is going to be a crazy Tuesday. The delay call from the school came. I know I can sleep in until 6:00. I have a doctor's appt. after work. I'm finally going to have my left arm and shoulder checked out. This has been going on far too long. For the past 2 weeks it keeps getting harder and harder to sleep. I've noticed a decrease in my strength and over the weekend pain was traveling down into my wrist and fingers. It sucks getting old, I feel like I'm falling apart.

I took a picture after walking this afternoon, not the best quality, I used Danny's iPod. I had that nice shimmery glean.... my fat was crying, red face and messy hair.  And I felt great afterwards. This is the real me.

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Friday, February 20, 2015

A Family That Exercises Together...


Wow! I can not believe today is Day 5 of Week 5. We as a family exercised together for 5 days this week! I am proud of my family. It's a tiny step, but we as a family took that step. A step in the right direction. 
It was 5:30 and I mentioned exercise... hmmm what to do. The idea of Richard Simmons was a tossed out suggestion, but to my surprise, Danny suggested a walking video. This was the first time he has ever suggested any form of exercise. There was no way I was going to say no. Danny and I started the Leslie Sansone Walk Away the Pounds. Dan did his shoulder exercises, then joined us in walking at the 1/2 mile mark. Although it was only a 1 mile walk, it was 1 mile we wouldn't have walked if we didn't do it.
Maybe this spring I'll be able to keep up with Miss Lisbeth walking around town. I won't have the OMG you're killing me feeling, I can't keep up. However, when the time comes and Miss Lisbeth is on Full Speed Ahead, if needed, I will speak up and ask her to shift it down a notch :)

I know males have the tendency to lose weight quicker, their bodies shape up faster... I can not let this discourage me.
I am just so over the top happy that we as a family did some form of exercise for 5 days. I can not wait for Week 6 to begin on Monday. WE have set our sails in the right direction and are becoming a healthier version of us! YAY!!!

We are expecting a snow storm tomorrow. Although I like taking the weekends off from exercise, I know the 3 of us will be outside shoveling snow in the driveway.

Have a great weekend! Keep warm and safe wherever you may be!

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Tuesday, February 17, 2015

Tuesday, Not a good day. Week 5


Today is Tuesday. It hasn't been a good day. My day began at 3:00 a.m. when I woke up in pain. My left hip. I have no idea what happened or what I did, but it hurt and it hurt bad. I took 3 ibuprofen and went back to bed. There was no comfortable position. Out to the living room I went. Reclining in the chair didn't make the pain any better. I went back to into my bed. At least it was warm under the comforter. 2 more ibuprofen at 6:45 and the heating pad. At 7:10, Danny and I were off...
Got to work at 8:00, boss man wasn't in yet, he arrived by 8:15, was cranky, stayed 20 minutes and went home. Best thing ever. I found a comfortable position, laying 1/2 way over my desk. Unfortunately I could not spend my day that way. Whenever I got a chance, I laid across my desk. It seemed to relieve some of the pain, maybe stretching it out, I don't know. I pushed myself to walk out in the warehouse a little more than usual, I figured if I didn't move, it would get worse. When I got home I hit the recliner with the heating pad and fell asleep for an hour.
After dinner and clean up, it was a little after 7:00, I had to exercise. I didn't want to exercise because of my hip, but I forced myself to and I did it. The 3 of us exercised. Danny not completely, but I wasn't in the mood to push tonight. Dan started out by doing his shoulder exercises. About 1/2 way into the video, I turned to my right and Dan was doing the video with me. A little wave of emotion came over me.
Last night while I was getting my shower, Dan came in for our usual chat. We do that. Basically it is the only place where we can have a discussion without Danny being there. He told me that he is glad to be home with us, but even more than that, he is so happy that I started exercising. He was encouraging, "You're going to notice a difference, not in 2 weeks, maybe not in 8, but if you keep doing this like you are, you will see your results."

Dan is amazed at what kind of exercise videos are found on the Internet. He thought that I did videos on the TV and played the Wii. I have no set program, whatever I feel like doing that day, I do. I don't want to get bored, I don't want to get into the same routine. I don't want to get to the point that I don't want to do this anymore.

At first I wasn't fond of the idea of sharing my exercise, but after tonight, I think I'm going to like it. Dan's range of motion isn't 100% from his surgery and mine isn't either because of my size. But watching him do it to the best of his ability was the exact little push I needed to complete my program to the best of my ability.

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